I usually laugh.

i absolutely positively love lying my ass off to people.

Can i stick my chip in your clam dip? works every time.

Im utterly disgusted with this world. People are so fucking stupid, so stupid. i want to hurt someone.

I'm sick, I'm sick
I'm sick, I'm sick
I'm sick, I'm sick
I'm sick, I'm sick
I'm sick and all things must pass away some day

The Wickerman (1973) is seriosuly one of the greatest and wierdest movies ive ever seen.

Yeah its been a minute.
I really have no clue as to what im going to do anymore. Court tommorow, no clue how its going. I have to get a place ASAP, but tim is really draining me of money, energy, and most of all patience. i want to throw his ass out on the streets but i dont know if i can. But he still hasnt found a job, and its noones falut but his. He should just go back to jail.
My birthdays in 9 days. 22. what the fuck. atleast tattoing is going well, not so much the money aspect but the abillity. I really need to get a second job, but noone seems to be hring at the moment and i dont want a new job to interfere with tattooing. Oh well, ill figure it out, somehow.

fist to the face.
shoobs go home.

Life is long when you're lonely. Depression is a son of a fuckin bitch.

I don't get this shit sometimes. I have great friends, well some of them are great. And i do appreciate them, more and more everyday. And ive got a family, a bit disfunctional, but a decent family none the less. I think i need a girlfriend or some shit. I dunno, call me greedy, i just want more outta this shit called life. I think i deiserve it. Yeah i do some dumb shit sometimes and my political views arnt the best, but im a good guy, atleast thats what people tell me.

I'll probally die alone, a bitter shell of what was once a human being. Faithless, hopeless, and angry. fuck it.

the most remarkable thing about coming home to you is the feeling of being in motion again
it's the most extraordinary thing in the world
i have two big hands and a heart pumping blood and a 1967 colt .45 with a busted safety catch
the world shines as i cross the macon county line
going to georgia

the most remarkable thing about you standing in the doorway is that it's you
and that you're standing in the doorway
and you smile as you ease the gun from my hand and i'm frozen with joy right where i stand
the world throws its light underneath your hair
forty miles from atlanta, this is nowhere
going to georgia

the world shines as i cross the macon county line
going to georgia

so tim got out the other day. feels good to hang out with that fool. gave him a tattoo and zack bought him a pint of E&J, he got drunk and acted reckless. but he just got outta jail so i dont blame him. showed him some titties haaa. but all is well. court the 15th. they offered me three years flat. FUCK THAT.

Its been an interseting 12 months or so.
Never really thought about it til the walk home from the bus stop.
I went from living in SC with Mike Lawrence and Jenny Kaniski. Which is weird enough. I barely knew them or of them. But there i was. Then i got kicked out/left. Burned a few bridges haaaa.
Then i ditched Steve when he came to pick me up and take me back to NJ. Ended up going a month later anyways. Which brought me to Jersey. Me and steve slept in central park after trashing a crusty show in another park. I worked as a night clerk at a conveince store for a few months then quit to go on tour with FSOD, which never happened by the way. But as "fate" had it i was picked up at a tattoo shop. Worked there and grew mad skills. Had some crazy times. None crazier til NYE. Whish also blows my mind. A girl i hadnt seen in five years stops by and then i go on a 19 hour bus trip a month later to move her up here with me. Even saw my sister. We totally rushed shit, and thats probally why it didnt work out. That and the fact that i defintly wast lil' RobRiot from Mb anymore. I had become someone totally different person but with an equally silly nick name.
And the other day the entire shop was held up by some knife weilding spic. Too bad he hopped in that minivan before we coulda gotten our hands on him. He'd be a dead man.

So looking back on the year or so I've had, I really don't know why I'm so down all the time. Im a realatively nice guy and people do, for some odd reason, enjoy my company. I've had a hell of a year. I'm 21 and working towards a goal, ney a dream. And it will work out in the end. I may hate my life sometimes, but hell it's faaaar from boring. what more could i ask for?!

Don't you look at me so smug
And say I'm going bad.
Who are you to judge me
And the life that I live?
I know that I'm not perfect
And that I don't claim to be.
So before you point your fingers,
Be sure your hands are clean.

i got nothing.

so i was arrested last night for a warrant i shouldn't of had. Fuck up state workers need to get thier fuckin shit together.

why bother?
you shouldn't.

In this meaningless existence we try and try. Try to better ourselves for the future. What future?! There is no fucking future.
We are destine for nothing. We live, we die. Life's simple. Take what you get, but get nothing. give everything but get nothing. Take everything, but get nothing. There is no reason to exist. sometime i think im here just to piss people off, and i wouldn't doubt it. Piss people off, for nothing.
There's nothing holding anyone back from anything. I can do whatever i please. Kill, hurt, fight, destroy, nothing holds you back. Cops?! ha fuck cops. They are only going to lock you up. Being put away is only temporary. And when i get out its all over again. NOTHING CAN STOP YOU. So why not? Why not do what you can. "No limits, No laws!" Destroy everything, fuck life. It's only temporary anyways. Why not go out in a bang, eh?

everybody's got thier rope, and baby im at the end of mine.

So I've got a date Friday night. Dinner and maybe a movie. Should be fun. I don't even know the last time I've even really been on a "date" ha.

Why do girls love my eyes?

i applied at Trump Marina today. Barporter, basically a barback. 11$ an hour. Hopefully i get a call and the job. My good friend DJ works there and i used him as a reference, so that'll help. I'm not giving up on tattooing, but i need to straighten out my life first. i still want to work at the shop as often as i can, but i know that place is no fucking good. especially for someone with morals. I really am surprised that Zacks been doing it for so long. But i just know what those people are after and those people are no fucking good. I am going to better myself, and nothing will get in my way. My mind is set. I'm going to get a normal job until i can find a REAL shop with REAL artists and people who know what the fuck they are doing. People who care about art and the art of tattooing, like i do. I want and need a mentor and no one there has been much help. I feel good about this, and that's a completely new feeling. I don't know where I'll be, but at least I know I'll be doing it right. Sometimes it feels good to do the right thing. I've taken all i can from that hole in the wall known as "Pushin Ink" and I'm ready to move on. That shop never felt right, so i know what I'm doing is ok.

Robbie's to dos
continue not drinking.
Get a real job.
Take care of court (fines and such)
Get healthy for once.
Look into further schooling
Get into a real shop.

oh and i think i want to go to art school once everything is situated.